YOZ to all who is reading tis.. WELCOME!!!
let me summary all the things that hit me "DEEP" into my heart....since so much have happen..
hemm..where should i start...
one thing i learnt so far is "life so fragile"
things that u thought would never happen...actually happen...
all u can do is juz sit in darkness silent...no tears can flow down...but onli blankness that fills my heart..
DAMN IT!!!!!!
In the Memory of my "Grandfather" (who died on 8/6/2006 in the morning)
many thanks to my grandfather who adore me since i was young...
never cease to love me every minute, the moment i was born into tis world...
adore me..bought me my toys...cook me DELICIOUS FoOD--> which turn me into the big fat boi ..hahaxx..
protected me and shed his protection around me when i am lonely...and feeling pain
without u...there would not be a boi name "Charles" ever exsiting..even though u never gave birth to me..
when i am sick u took care of me..with a bright smile that always warms my heart...
even though my own family members left me to combat with my own very SICKNESS
u are also the very best of the best chinese DOCTOR i noe..
ur memories..will forever live in heart which is beating in tis very moment
Last but not least i thank God for making euu my grandfather...U ARE THE BESTY!!!!!!!!!
U took care of me when i am sick...it breaks my heart to see that i cannot do anything to help euu..
looking at euu, who i though from a very strong old man..to nothing mere much then looks of a prisoner of War
My heart breaks to see euu lyk tis..i wan to cry but no tears came out...all i can do is stare as..u lay there..
when i got home...i juz stare in blankness...at last i could not control anymore...i juz let it all out...crying..till i could no longer cry...
i deepest regret is that i am not able to go there to pay u my last respect as a dutyful grandson..
even till now as i am typing tis..post..i noe the ceremony of ur cremation is going..on..
i could still hear the bells of the ceremony ringing in my ears...
nw...my heart is hurt...trying to put a good face ...so that everyone noe that i am alright
hahaz!!!yeah!! happy smile!!
All because of my FATHER ...i cannot do tis...
I HATE EUUU!!!
heiishh...
hemm..nw let not talk about tis sadness...trying to be happy..
k...now for the CHALET..>.<
DAY 1
we reach the chalet around afternoon..OmG ..it was raining so heavily
then i carry those stupid drinks until my handsore..
anyway..that day..got preety mad..because i was carry so much laguage then M.C refuse to carry anything..onli a stupid small plastic bag filled with empty bottles..everytime ask him to help carry
tell me..my things heavy, i cannot carry..PLS LARH I CARRY SO MUCH MORE THING AND MY BACK IS BREAKING LEH!!! SPARE A THOUGHT LARH...STILL CAN PLAY UR STUPID PSP
but in the end..i forgive and forget...lol.."see i very nice hor" XP
all the bois and gals check in into the chalet room
then the we boiz..begun to fight where we all sleep
as the rain was so heavy..the escape theme park was close..
soo..we went to the arcade..play play...and went for swimming too..with the BOIz..
evening came i ate my dinner at..the steamboat restaurant(buffet)
paid around 16 bucks for it..i tink it was worth it...
since i ate ate till i full lyk siao
I WAN TO BANKRUPT the restaurant..hehesz..i so EVIL +.+
i ate with my two frenz while the third one juz watch us eat since he go no money...kekess..
first to lost the eating is STEVEN!!!
then M.C
AT LAST the WIINER mE...hahax
mee..very dangerous...eat until lyk siao, easy to get FAT...hemm..muz excerise liao
AFTER That...
when with the class go walk in beach at nite..
so dark lorh the place..while walking met some "malay pai kai"
they then call me "chinese bastard"..WTH call me that...euu..MALAY TOOOT!!!!
hahax..but in the end..juz left them alone..(wan to beat them to pulp..haha..but i too weakk..sia)
after we are done we went bac to the room...i then went to sleep for a short while
DAY 2
i woke up lyk around 1am
then i wore my excersie gear to jog in the pasir ris park
there so dark lorh
very scary...but i kept my cool..
thank God i did not see anything that should not be seen..wheesh..
jog the whole park..then jog around the north of the downtown east to the chalet bac..all take about 1hr something
then all my frenz worried..ask me where i went..sia...so touch*..=)
some my frenz say i pro..lol..no larh..i weak sia...even my coach say the same about me...
when done went to bath..and begun to draw a bit..then fall asleep in the floor..
at last some frenz..ask me to go sleep on the bed...because i was sleeping next to the toilet..hahaz..so patethic
then woke up again..drank my soya milk and eat cup noodles..
actually they were planning AMAZING RACE but then things never work out..so..tis day we go to escape theme park instead...we played and played..
norman and farhann stay one the second day...
someone also came with tiffany and shi ling on the second day ...*.*
we played there till we all sian..lorh...then the ride take until my heart wan to drop out..
hahazx..the thing i hate most there is the STUPID HAUNTED HOUSe!!!!!!!
those stupid ppl scaring me...HATE IT!!!!
where the BATTER...i wan to hit tis GUYS!!!...GRR...ROAR!!!!!!!
then also played "rainbow","revolution" and "wet and wild"...
get sooo wet also ...
then Mei also got go...larh..
she larh..go drink BEER ..drink so much until got drunk..
then also accompany her bac to her class chalet...worried for ..her sia..
she so young drink so much...then also ate some food there and package bac to my room..
then also heard...from my frenz..she got to get beer again...then..i ofcourse shocked larh..
STILL DRINKING!!!!!!!!$!#!!#Y!)*#!#&*!#$
lol..and somemore..she so bad lorh..never give me any too try..hahax..
but still happy she alright...after she sober up...
me and my frenz also played the X-boX..still siao...HALO 2 and WINNING ELEVEN
play till tired till fell asleep..dun wish to go jog..there very dark...
phew...sleep.woke up...then pack stuff...go home..
wah liao..so bad..CHALET end liao..
waeee!!!..going to miss euu chalet!!!
then the class walk bac..to the pasir ris station..we part there..
then i took a bus 88 home..reach my home...
the on com..later...sleep sleep...3h
then that time..all the bad memories..came bac..heiish...nw..i feel i don' t have energy to do anything...
aRHH!!!...i muz start training liao leh..but my body juz won't move damn it..
T.T
then me and my family is going bac soon to malaysia..but to Kedah first then penang..to keep away form my FATHER....
but then...i am not afraid of euu..if u wan...i will KICK UR ASS!!!!!!...GRRR
heish..not all i wan is to get stronger in my studies...my sports...become a good God children...and fufil as many as my dreams i can...some which i tink can never happen...
but then..the words of my grandfather which he said before his sickness...attack him..which still linger in me
he say....
watever u do..do it..to ur best..don't every give up...
break down any obstacles..u facing....
become..a great man...and don't be lyk my father..
take care of my mum...
and won't blame me for not paying the last respect after his death...
that y i wan to get stronger...i hope my grandparents..and God will grant me the strength to do that...
GUIDEE ME!!!!!!!!
lol....
anyway...whoever is reading tis...sorri to make u read about my sorrow..and so one..it..sucks..i knw..
that y..my life is bored...hahax..
hope..i can get over tis...muhahahaha..
signing off
C.L
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